A little bit about me...…
• Should I start from the beginning of what I know? That would take a lot of space, so I'll just tell you a little about me as I am now, then maybe later on, put in a little of my herstory.
• All of my life I have felt a deep connection with the Earth and her seasons. I have felt that there was a higher being and that "it" was feminine. Throughout various studies over the past several years I have come to the knowledge that the Spirit that pervades the world is neither male or female and yet is both. I recently attended meetings for people seeking the Catholic faith and though I learned a lot from it, there are still so many things that do not make sense to me. I hope that my choice to not continue that direction causes no harm to the ones who love me, but I must follow my own path.
• I have used my thoughts to alter situations for as long as I can remember. I'm not saying I have special psychic abilities - we all have them. Some people call them Prayers, I call it Magick. If you are a Christian reading this, have you ever put your whole heart into a prayer? Every bit of your emotion and being is directed to your child coming home safely in a rainstorm, your loved one making it through an impossible situation, or even passing on peacefully. You are using your own form of Magick. Sometimes we get what we want, other times Spirit steps in and does something we never understand.
• I know that things will happen and we may not know the reason why until years later. I know that many things have happened in my life and though I don't understand all of it, they shape who I am. For example, my mother and I had a very hard time getting along the last years I lived with her. There were times we wouldn't even speak to each other and the tension in the house was so thick! Now I can only wonder at how my father put up with it all.
• Almost five years after she passed away, I came to realize that she only did what she thought was right for me. She wasn't trying to hurt me, just help me be strong enough to deal with life. She also gave me courage to fight for what I believe and the knowledge to hold my innocence without being weak. She showed me how to see things as they are, yet have enough imagination to change them to suit me. She showed me how to balance a checkbook and splurge once in a while on little things. I now miss her deeply and every chance I get I tell my children something that she did that influenced the way that I am. Little things that she would show me - fairy mushrooms and deep quiet places in the forest that you could just feel little folk around you, the way the rain soaks into the ground when it is thirsty, how to find my way by using the sun and the stars, to stop and feel the wind on my face - all these things and so many more. (4-28-04 - I will be creating a page just for her as soon as I get more of this stuff moved around)
• My children. What can I say about them other than they are truly blessings to me. Whatever I may have done in this lifetime, or a previous one, must have been very good to deserve having them in my life. Through so many trials and hard times they have been cheerful and strong and loving. During some of my darkest times I would look into their eyes and see the light of Spirit shining so brightly and I would know that the world is a beautiful place.
• Since moving to Phoenix with my parents in 1981, I have been camping all over Arizona and took one trip to California. Other than that I have lived there in "The Valley" without going anywhere else. Now I am in Sandusky, Ohio and have learned many things about the land here and I have come to love it here. Some people think I am a little odd but I can say that it is truly beautiful. I have squirrels and blue jays in my back yard. The trees are vibrant against a deep blue sky. The air is clean and refreshes my soul as I breath it in.
• There are so many things that I would like to put on here, and I know that a few people are not very open about their lives, but we all have problems and challenges, as well as triumphs and victories. Perhaps a few of you are reading this have gone through similar situations and didn't realize that you aren't alone. Maybe you belong to a "mainstream" religion and are not sure what to think, this could help you see that we are all just humans after all.
• I don't know how many of you want the basics, but here goes: I was born in Texas, September - 1971. I love candles and certain incenses. Watching the sun rise and set. The sound of wind rustling through trees. The sound of rain as it beats upon the roof, or falls softly against a window. Candles glowing softly. The way a baby sleeps. The way a cat stretches after a nap. The laughter of children. Flowers peeking out of their winter sleep. "I love you's" from children. Looking at the stars. Reading good stories. Designing web graphics. Working on websites. Making my own soap. Growing my own herbs. All kinds of crafts. Camping in the woods. The feeling I get when I do my own repairs. Walking at twilight. Listening to the sounds of a house after everyone has gone to sleep. Planning for tomorrow. Planting a garden.
• I need to get out of here for a little while. Come back soon. Hopefully I will get more in here.
Namaste
