it's 1am - i'm awake again; wondering why.
should i just lay here or go downstairs?
it doesn't really matter 'cause no one here cares.
living my life without you is making my heart bare.

it's 2am - not asleep yet; wanting to cry.
are you thinking of me? are you lonely too?
i can't help but think; someone's there with you.
that was mean - i've no right to be blue.

it's 3am - this is insane; another angry sigh.
why this rage, boiling over in my soul?
i just get up and clean 'til i feel empty and cold
just wishing you were here for ME to hold.

it's 4am - back to bed; sleep? i'll try.
the sun will be rising soon - another day;
smile and breathe - all the right things to say.
can't last much longer; pretending to be okay.

it's 5am - no, not yet; kiss night goodbye.
it will be time to call you again and smile.
do you know that your voice makes it all worthwhile?
already my day brightens as my fingers dial...

september 22, 2000ce