As the nights lengthen I can't help but wonder where the Summer went. The days have been overcast and rainy and the cold seeps into my bones. I'm trying to stay positive about so many things, but it isn't always easy. I do try to stay focused on my knitting and crafts. I also focus on my chickens and other "trivial" things, but dreaming of the future has come to a screeching halt.  

Why is that? I'm not really sure and too often I feel apathetic about it. I know that I still want to get my farm and raise rabbits, goats and alpacas. I know that I want to have chickens and a cow. Perhaps even a turkey. I know I want a couple barn cats and a dog or two. I know that I want to make a living selling fiber and herbal salve and perhaps sales with cria. But lately it all seems pretty distant.

On Samhain this year, I plan to spend the day out at K's. He's got a got place to light a large fire and I can take care of some emotional baggage while celebrating the new year. I just hope it isn't raining that day.

Finances have been a little better and it mostly is due to the car I bought. I've been able to keep the girls here since I drive them to school and back ('though, most days I walk to pick them up). I do not want to go through another winter with only the 2 youngest kids here. It makes it way too stressful.

For now, I'm going to keep my mind occupied with books, crafts and possibly a class or two.